That sounds like it it pleasurable but it is not. The exquisite pain one feels when grieving is very profound. No one can tell you how long to grieve or how you’re supposed to grieve. It comes out of you and can encompass you. I cannot tell you how many tears I’ve cried since my…

As I sit here I’m trying to think of if I want to start with my Dad or talk about myself and what’s been happening in my life. PTSD is definitely not something I’d wish on anyone and no I didn’t suddenly get it I’ve had a good bit of trauma growing up. I’ve been…

I’ve had PTSD for probably many years or the anxiety I had post sexual assaults in my past were exasperated by the trauma of 2018 with the domestic abuse (emotional & psychological) abuse I endured along with the concluded murder of Dexter. Of course I’m not ruling out the fact that he likely caused the…

There are days when you wake up and you wish things aren’t quite going your way. I’m having one of those days. I had an issue in the way back to the house and I prefer not to talk about it but it shook me up badly. This prompted me to contact and make Dr’s…

Last week Thursday Joe and I traveled to Rhinelander from Cincinnati and on the way to Wisconsin I received a phone call from the District Attorney’s office notifying me that they reached a plea agreement and we were already in Illinois at the time so I informed the coordinator of the time that we would…

Sometimes for me it feels like the final weak. I am feeling stronger in some ways but in other ways I’m feeling quite weak. The entire case has been handled so poorly from the beginning and I’ve felt like I’ve been living in the dark with it had I not went on ccap to get…