I’m not sure how long it takes to withdraw from certain medications and I think some of the feelings I’ve been having in the past couple weeks have been from that. I have decided to try to find alternatives to the prescription and see if I can live without that chain to the fucking pharmacy and doctor who wants to see me mainly to get money and waste my time for five minutes of his time so he can write a rx. No fucking thank you. So I’m going to do some research which I’m good at anyway for alternatives for what was helping with my anxiety and not be chained. So far it’s been about two weeks without the chain and yes I notice the withdrawal of the medication and I’m experiencing at times uncomfortable symptoms but that won’t last forever.

There are many things in life that do not last, relationships, friendships, life…. nothing really lasts forever. I am feeling a bit moody but like I said I need to find alternatives, whether it’s something to eat an over the counter supplement or more essential oils. I just am tired of the chain and need to break free of it.

If anything I might go in to see the doctor when I can afford to do so and see if I can just have a rx for the severe panic attacks that I cannot get under control. Doubtfully the doctor that I’ve seen will write-up the rx but that’s why I need to find a better doctor or mental health care provider because I do have ocd and ptsd and anxiety and I know I’m strong but there are times that I have panic attacks, I still have unfortunately not gone more than a month without one.  I also have personal space issues for people I do not want near me or trust and I’m an empath and sensitive to energies around me. Some people may think that’s a load of crap but it’s not.

My new hope is that I have the strength to withstand withdrawal and find good healthy alternatives for my anxiety.