I have always considered myself to be a decent person. I’m understanding, honest,  compassionate, kind-hearted and I try to be a decent human being. I listen to my friends and family and try to be there for them whenever they need me and I do that in relationships as well and all I ask is for that for myself as well.  I try to choose my friends and relationships that way as well and it frustrates me that when I think I’ve met decent people and then they flip to something completely different from what they presented themselves as being. Just why? Life is too short for shit like that. Be there for each other, love each other, understand each other, go out of your way to listen to someone who is ranting and just needs it. It’s not that difficult. I think that’s part of what attracts people to me is that I do that for people but then when I try to rant to get shit off my chest some people turn their heads and run. Why? Is this world so selfish that this is the new normal?

I’m going through a lot of changes in my life and trying to figure out where I need to be, what I should be doing, who I should have in my life and what I should be doing. Trying to get on track with things that have been overlooked or procrastinated and trying to make things right and it’s difficult and frustrating. All I’ve ever asked for is support, not fix my problems, just listen. If someone can help in some way I do appreciate that and welcome it because I would do that for someone.

I feel this world has gone to hell in a hand basket and much of the humanity that once existed has been tainted to the point where a lot of people are just so selfish. Don’t get me wrong I do look out for myself because I’ve learned I have to. Yes I put myself first and look out for what I need and what I can do but I’m a good person. I love hard, I care and I try my best to be the person that people would want to be with and would love to surround myself with like-minded people. That’s what I want.